I really am enjoying myself here in Salt Lake. My job is awesome - I love being a waitress, the money is good and immediate, my co-workers and bosses are awesome and all my customers have been great. It doesn't really seem like I am living in a big city.. maybe that is because of the neighborhood that I am living in. It feels very much like ann arbor - a few less trees but everyone is very nice, active and friendly. I have been running almost every night and I see a lot of the same people everytime, especially those with dogs. Oh, and the library here is awesome! 
This is what happens when you get a job and start leaving him alone a lot ...it will happen especially quickly if you have never really left him before (ie... always taken him to your previous jobs with you and live on the road in a van with him). Thankfully he left the end intacted and I can still finish reading the book.
While I realize that most people who come to this blog of mine only do so because of the pictures, I am going to ask everyone to please respect the great effort that I am about to put into this post and please read it. I feel that through my desire for this to not become a rant, I have built a false image of myself for all of you. I have been recieving a numerous amount of comments about how I am living the dream, but in truth my life has been far from what I would dream up. Nothing in life is so one-sidedly good or bad.
I left Ann Arobr on a whim. I had discovered something special in climbing and I thought that perhaps there could be more. I had been unemployed for almost three months at this point, due to my own ego (fast food was not yet among the options) and Michigan's horrible job market. I left everything I loved - my family, boyfriend and all things familiar - for what I did not yet know.
The first few months in Boulder were rocky, but I found a job and made lots of great friends. I also, through a horrible mistake on my part and the uncaring attitude at CU, added $13,000 of debt to my name. That added stress, however, did introduce me to life in a van and eventually Hueco Tanks.
Now, I am sure that most of you know of Hueco and my first road trip. It was certainly the best time of my life. I discovered something that made me more than truely happy, most of it was pure bliss. It was also completely unplanned. I went for six months on what I had saved from the job I had found in Boulder (not much) and ignored all of my previous debt. I also got horribly sick with bronchitis and had to take the ambulance to the hospital on my newly found lack of health insurance.
Upon my re-emergence into working society, I have had to finally come to terms with my debt. If you were to give me back all of the money that I have ever made working, I would still be in debt. This serious problem is why I am now trying to afford filling for bankruptcy. That however is now going to have to wait. A couple of months ago, I found out that my beloved home's engine is about to die and saving for a new home has taken precedence.
Through this I have stayed the same up-beat, stubbornly determined self that I have always been. ...for the most part. Today when my hard drive burnt it's self up and I lost the 40 some pages that I had written of my someday-will-be novel, I felt that I had hit rock bottom. With this new sense of despair, I felt truely lonely. Having a mobile home and life does not make it easy for deep friendships and connections. I have either left all of the people that I deeply care for or they have left me. And on top of that, everyone who thinks they are getting to know me or keeping up with me through this blog, have been misled.
This post is not my way of asking for help. Instead, I am just asking to be seen as I am - someone desperatly holding on to happiness, throughout all of life's struggles. Conscious life will always be better than the alternative.
I left Ann Arobr on a whim. I had discovered something special in climbing and I thought that perhaps there could be more. I had been unemployed for almost three months at this point, due to my own ego (fast food was not yet among the options) and Michigan's horrible job market. I left everything I loved - my family, boyfriend and all things familiar - for what I did not yet know.
The first few months in Boulder were rocky, but I found a job and made lots of great friends. I also, through a horrible mistake on my part and the uncaring attitude at CU, added $13,000 of debt to my name. That added stress, however, did introduce me to life in a van and eventually Hueco Tanks.
Now, I am sure that most of you know of Hueco and my first road trip. It was certainly the best time of my life. I discovered something that made me more than truely happy, most of it was pure bliss. It was also completely unplanned. I went for six months on what I had saved from the job I had found in Boulder (not much) and ignored all of my previous debt. I also got horribly sick with bronchitis and had to take the ambulance to the hospital on my newly found lack of health insurance.
Upon my re-emergence into working society, I have had to finally come to terms with my debt. If you were to give me back all of the money that I have ever made working, I would still be in debt. This serious problem is why I am now trying to afford filling for bankruptcy. That however is now going to have to wait. A couple of months ago, I found out that my beloved home's engine is about to die and saving for a new home has taken precedence.
Through this I have stayed the same up-beat, stubbornly determined self that I have always been. ...for the most part. Today when my hard drive burnt it's self up and I lost the 40 some pages that I had written of my someday-will-be novel, I felt that I had hit rock bottom. With this new sense of despair, I felt truely lonely. Having a mobile home and life does not make it easy for deep friendships and connections. I have either left all of the people that I deeply care for or they have left me. And on top of that, everyone who thinks they are getting to know me or keeping up with me through this blog, have been misled.
This post is not my way of asking for help. Instead, I am just asking to be seen as I am - someone desperatly holding on to happiness, throughout all of life's struggles. Conscious life will always be better than the alternative.
beau got a bath yesterday... he did not enjoy it
although i do use the library when i need to work somewhere especially quite this little coffee shop has become just perfect for all other internet needing times... and it is only a block from where i have been staying (which is about the limit for how long i want to carry around my 10 pound laptop).
Porscha's thought of the day
0 Comments Published by porscha on Tuesday, August 15, 2006 at 8:47 PM.
It is not that I have gained patience - just that I have learned that time will move quickly, no matter what I want it to do.
And I am now in Salt Lake City. There were a few minor losses of power, but all together they only cost me about 45 minutes. It was not a bad trip, infact, after the power losses and aside from the hills I managed to keep a pretty steady 60-70mph. I was happy with the trip and as usual I got quite a bit of attention from passing drivers for my vanagon drivingness :)Now it is time to find a job!
The drive was much hillier than I remember. On this particular hill I managed to make it down to a wonderfully fast 32mph. That is a beautiful looking mirror, don't you think?
Beau did not enjoy the drive... and I swear I saw him roll his eyes a couple times at my singing and state-line-crossing celebrations.
I stopped in Vedauwoo on my way to Salt Lake. I got in some climbing that night and woke up at 2am to this beautiful moon. While on a picture taking walk I ran into some girls having fun around a camp fire and I joined in for drinks, riddles and stories. It was a good time, but I left after only a couple hours of climbing the next morning because I was anxious to see how the rest of the drive would go.
